Matthew 20:29-33 (ESV)
29 And as they went out of Jericho, a great crowd followed him. 30 And behold, there were two blind men sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was passing by, they cried out, “Lord, have mercy on us, Son of David!” 31 The crowd rebuked them, telling them to be silent, but they cried out all the more, “Lord, have mercy on us, Son of David!” 32 And stopping, Jesus called them and said, “What do you want me to do for you?” 33 They said to him, “Lord, let our eyes be opened.”
I love to journal, I teach a workshop titled, “The Prayer Project”. About a handful of years ago, I read Matthew 20:29-33 and I heard the Lord ask, “Shana, what do you want me to do for you?”
With my pen in hand and my journal open, I began to answer His question.
- I want to know that the God that freed the Israelites from their bondage in Egypt, can set me free from the bondage in my life. (Exodus 13)
- I want to know that the protection and the provision the Israelites received while in the wilderness, God would protect me and my family too. (Exodus 15 & 16)
- I want to experience a parting of the Red Sea in my life and walk across dry land! (Exodus 14)
- I want to experience God and see His hand in my life, just like they did in Scripture.
And just like that.. in the next breath, He began to show me.
Out of no where, those issues that I hadn’t dealt with, began to surface. It caused me to have anxiety and I became fearful. Jesus prompted me to take His Word and write it down on index cards. I posted them on my bathroom wall, in my car, I hole punched them and put them on rings so that I could pull them out while I was in the grocery store and needed to hear Him speak. As those written words began to transform me, the things that held me in bondage began to loosen and the cell door opened. I ran like my life depended on it, because it did.
My husband was a farmer, an active worker in our church and our town had just been destroyed by a tornado, he spent 16 hours a day helping others dig out our little town. Then it happened, he was in an accident that resulted in amputations and a vascular transplant. I was scared, how would he be able to provide for us like this? What will we do now?
We spent four years watching the Lord part Red Sea’s. We should have lost every material thing we had. The Lord provided for us in more ways than I can count. He provided for us financially, I’m not exaggerating when I say that we literally found money in our mailbox and when Roy was recovering, boxes of cleaning supplies and meals were brought to our porch. Our church gathered around us like we were their own children.
I experienced God and His hand in my life. Just like they did in Scripture.
I ask you now.. What do you want Jesus to do for you? When bad or tragic things happen in your life, know that He doesn’t cause them, but He does walk with you through them. He will show you who He is and how much He knows and cares about what you are going through.
Till next time!